23 February 2010

Rediscovering yourself

What happened to all those hobbies that used to keep you charged all the time? Where have they gone?
My hobbies have always been seasonal. Not in the traditional sense of weather based hobby, but rather each of my hobbies would have its seasons.
There would be some months, I would be glued to one book after the other.
There would be some weeks I would spend watching movies back to back with no let up
There would be some fortnights when I would pick up my camera and go for a stroll in the beach looking for shots.
or
There would be simply years when I would just keep racing Need for speed on the comp!
I miss them now, for I don't any of these nowadays. So much so that I've come to believe that am not the same person I was since I don't do any of the stuff I loved.
It is not that I chose not to do things, there simply lacked time for me to give them due seasons of their own.
So, what has changed then? I've been married and had kids over the last ten years. Thats what happened.

Its not a bad thing by itself. I'm having a wonderful time with my wife and children. But, my hobbies have suffered and I yearn for them nowadays. Which is a good thing if you consider that I still do yearn for them and I have not become one grumpy old man! at least not yet in my opinion! :)
So, slowly, step by step, am trying to allocate incremental amount of time to my hobbies. Finding spaces where I could get to read a book over a month what I would have otherwise finished in a span of days.
Pickup my camera and shoot around the house and the sky!
Waiting for an appropriate window to get myself a PS3 to frag away to glory!

Viva life!

16 February 2010

My Name is Khan and am not a terrorist.

I must say that My Name is Khan is perhaps one of the best films I have learned from till date. I make this vague statement because the movie lends itself very much to Bollywoodish and specifically Karan Johar's soap and shampoo treatment very much. But, underneath the soapy texture lies a very beautiful story that has been woven with such dexterity that am inclined to give a standing ovation to the story writer Shibani Bathija. 
First look at the message
Most international terrorists today maybe muslims. But all muslims are not terrorists. Its a message that MUST go out to the world today. A world that has been spooked into jumping out its own body at the mere sight of a stereotype Mussalman. The story has a very very simple message. The protagonist wants to tell the U.S. president that his name is khan and he is not a terrorist.
Why the U.S. President?
The leading lady undergoning personal trauma just for bearing the surname khan beseeches the protagonist as to how they expect to live a life that makes them sinners and terrorists just for carrying that surname. He tries to tell her that he will tell anyone that he is not a terrorist. She challenges him as to how many will he go and explain this. Will he tell the president and thereby to the whole country? she cries out trying to drive into him the futility of the exercise and that it is doomed from the start.

The second portion of the message is that relegion is just a by stander in the whole thing. Relegion is not tainting people. It is the other way around. This message is conveyed so beautifully in a non-cliched manner by the protagonists mother when the protagonist himself is too young to understand the incidents happening around him. The message she conveys, there are only two types of people in the world. Good and Bad and relegion does not make them so. How true.  Later in the movie, this is proven by a whole bunch of people who almost get brainwashed into jihad by a radical is swung back into their senses by the protagonist.

The most important message that this movie spreads is that 'Love begets love'. Throughout the movie, the protagonist due to his nature, goes about spreading innocent love wherever he treads. People cannot help but reciprocate his love. This am not talking about emotional ladies. Even customs officials and random police officers and normally people of brawn mellow down and give him a pat on the back and almost seem to redeem him of the social stigma attached to him name! and yet he wants the same from no less than the president of america. Boy does he get it?

Shibani again aces the whole plot by making the protagonist an 100% innocent, childlike, lovable and poker faced protagonist who occasionally guffaws like a 4 year old and makes the whole audience laugh with him. All of the above messages coming from anyone one else would have been so so so so cliched and would not have made the audience amenable to the message as Rizvan Khan does.


The movie (though not pioneering) also has set made minnows of major bollywood plots such as inter religion  love, divorce and other such things that otherwise would  have hijacked a whole bollywood plot! Perhaps several decades of films have revolved purely around the topics of love and inter religion marriage. Thankfully Karan and Shibani have deftly delegated this to the sidelines as though to convey a message that such topics are not going to get full movie length slots any longer.

Finally, songs have been used lightly in stark contrast with traditional Karan Johar films where music does the heavy lifting and is intense part of the back ground score. My ears still ring from Lataji's "Kabhie Kushie.. Kabhi..ghaammmmmmmm" every five minutes in the K3G backgorund score.

Coming back to My Name is Khan, This one picture has so eloquently conveyed several lovely messages of love, tolerance and good will like no other Indian movie till date has. This would not have been possible but for a brilliant execution by the team comprising of Karan Johar, Ravi.K.Chandran, Kajol and Shah Rukh.
The two lead characters pretty much carry the weight of the complete film on their shoulders with Kajol getting lesser screen time albeit. She does an amazing job nevertheless. Its difficult to not fall in love with her Mandira and not to cry with the mother in Mandira. This actress has an amazing range of emotions and she challenges Shah Rukh to raise the bar in acting! Pity that we do not get to see much of this actress on screen these days.
Ravi.K.Chandran is the man who has wielded the lens and he makes his presence felt at several places and yet he quietly slips to the background when he should not be around and yet for the discerning viewer we can feel that he has been there. Scenes involving Kajol at her emotional best uses excellent use of closeups, not too tight and yet sufficient allowing her emotions to fill the frame and reach the audience and soak them in. His shots have a very nice range and this film has allowed him to exploit his strengths very well!
Music, by Shankar Ehsaan and loy is I must say salt of this movie. It adds taste to the film though by itself is nothing to write home about.
Overall, this movie, though served in a traditional bollywood style is packs a powerful punch and is perhaps one of the best written and executed. I will even go so far as to say that I will perhaps nominate this for Indian entry to Oscars unless something else comes along.

06 February 2010

Fuel for thought

For quite sometime we have been seeing advertisements that say that 'In another 40 years, there would be no fuel left"
I would be 75 by then! Hopefully??? alive????? to witness the last drop of today's life line drying up?????? (Why would you even  want to be around when this happens?)
The effects of the drying up resources would be foreboding its arrival much before the actual 40 years elapse. The prices of fossil fuels would likely to have reached such insane levels that they are probably not even available through common outlets! Hopefully by then the world would have shifted to alternative sources of energy.
By energy I don't just mean transportation, I mean pretty much everything that we use from electricity  to cooking gas. Going by present day technologies, nuclear and solar energies are perhaps the only ones that have promise. If there is a some remarkable invention that promises to harness more solar energy than the ones available today and if this technology is mass produced we will see a sea of revolution in our power reliance. We will hopefully see solar panels on all rooftops be it at homes or vehicles or even a phone booth!
Nuclear reactors would have advanced to such an extent that robots are used extensively where humans tread today facing the risk of irradiating themselves. The reactors themselves would have advanced to such an extent that we use fusion reactors instead of the fission ones today, thereby multiplying several times the energy harnessed.
The discovery of higgs boson would somehow have helped scientists understand black holes better and perhaps (this is looking remote) have embarked on a road to simulate blackholes in controlled environments without allowing it to get out of control much like simulating tornadoes in a lab today! The new millenium will look towards this promising source of energy much like we look upon nuclear energy today!
Energy efficiencies would have also improved greatly by the next twenty years. All countries would have ensured that light sources are reduced to solitary units with piped light supplies to all rooms much like centralised airconditioning works today! This would greatly reduce the greenhouse gas emissions improving efficiencies!
Cooking is an area that will continue to rely on electricity and heat based stoves. Even if alternative forms such as microwaves are invented, cooking methods evolved over thousands of years based on heat generating stoves cannot adapt that fast and will continue to primarily rely on classic stoves with perhaps inventive heat generation techniques!
What will happen to vehicular transport? At the pace we are evolving only battery driven vehicles are going to rule the roads in another twenty years! I cannot imagine where all the electricity for charging the vehicles is going to come from? Pace of nuclear technology evolution is not keeping pace with the potential demand of electricity in another twenty or so years.
hmm.. will this happen or not? Lets see in another twenty years. Hopefully blogger is around for me to check what the heck was I thinking twenty years prior (that is this date)

05 February 2010

Hypocrisy to the core.

Is it even possible for someone to be never a hypocrite? At all, not once in their adult life? I'd like to be and I find many a times when my conscience strong arms my own arm and untwirls my clenched fists to point at myself and tell me that
'You are a bloody hypocrite'.

Take for instance, road rage. I have been driving for about twenty years now and I thought I had matured as a driver and learned to take with equanimity situations where I would otherwise feel terribly wronged by the other driver.
Normally, I find myself even telling my dad to calm down when he would set out with his "rascal" from the safety of the largely soundproof airconditioned car! I would beseech him with a 'Whats the use?" he is not going to change because you yelled at him. Let it be."
Today, much to my shame, I found another driver pointing his finger at me and cursing me for what I strongly believe was his mistake (he tried to pass me on the left and got caught in a tight situation when I had to swerve left to give way to an oncoming vehicle). My valve blew and I was seeing red .
I immediately tried to give him a chase to yell at him and did not get to move more than 100 yards before the traffic stopped me. Suddenly I was enveloped by a whole bunch of people who started screaming at me for driving like a lunatic :( and my mood swung 360 degrees from anger to shame! I apologized instantly and they moved off cursing me :(
I'm still feeling ashamed at my own behavior! Why did I behave the way I did? My reaction was not even commiserate with the incident of the biker yelling at me! At the end only I was left with a bruised pride, broken principle, depression.
I realized that the crowd was just in shouting me down for rash driving. I would have yelled at myself and cursed myself worser had I been in the crowd watching myself drive down the way I did.
Though I never even got to shift beyond the first gear! I merely accelerated loudly to 20kph! venting my flash of anger on the accelerator pedal, its still an act that reeks of hypocrisy!
In a flash, I was brought down to earth and I felt ashamed at myself. I lost a bit of my own self respect.
I realize with humility, I have not still conquered the road rage and I still have some way to go. I accept this judgment and will work on it.

Part 2- Instant Karma!
Hot on the heels of what happened this morning, I proceeded to work with shame and depression attacking me from all sides. As we were trawling in the traffic, I heard a loud bump and realized that someone had rammed into me from behind.
I got off the vehicle and saw that a Santro had bumped into my back. I looked at the driver of the car who was inside and was wearing a bemused look on his face. He opened his vehicle and asked me
"what?"
"You ran into my car"
"Did you reverse?" he asked me
".....what?"

"you would have reversed thats why you bumped into me"
am too stunned to even react! I start laughing

".. how will i reverse when the traffic is moving forward?
" move move.. take your vehicle. you'd have reversed thats why you rammed into me"

"Sir, the least you can do is admit that you ran into me by mistake and say a sorry, instead you are making such wild goose accusations and trying to wiggle out of the situation. Is it fair?"

"....... Ok, sorry,.... "
" thanks.. " and we move on.
He waves sorry again as he passes me now. I'm sure he would have regretted his behaviour and said sorry.
Now that coming from me hot on the heels of lunacy just twenty minutes earlier, surprised me.
Well, I got rammed into the back as sort of instant punishment for my stupidity earlier in the day. That's what I'd say instant karma, delivered!

Action Item: work on the anger further!

04 February 2010

Someone Tagged me!

Lavanya, one tough job you gave me. Phew... here goes

ah.. one more thing. I did not play by the rules . I changed/added questions more than the rules permitted :)

1. What is your current obsession?
Gadgets, Photograhy, reading, music,gaming the degree of obsession keeps changing by the season.

2. What are you wearing today?
As though men have a thousand choices to wear to work - Shirt,Tie,Trousers,Shoes. and everything else under it :P

3. You are on your deathbed and you want to judge your life. How would you.
Have you been a good son, a good husband, a good father, good brother, and an honest human being.

4. What’s the last thing you bought?
ahem.. got excited by a 325 bucks car vacuum cleaner in IndiaVarta.com and brought it. Worked thrice and died. Serves me right!

5. What are you listening to right now?
Dekha ek khwab maine silsile hue - Silsila (in my car right now)

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?
Tough question. How will I do justice to this question? Lavanya is a very kind person for having tagged my blog. I will need to know her better to be fair to answer this.

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
India, Kodaikanal

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?
If this is about dress, then its always Veshti!

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Any river bank where the water is softly gurgling down cobblestones, with me sitting on a big rock with my feet in water with tiny fish nibbling my toes!
Nothing but the sound of gurgling water enveloping you except for the rare sound of a bird calling out its partner surrounded by tall trees with bright sunlight poring through gaps in the ferns making the water sparkle in places, doing nothing but just revelling in the marvellous nature and losing myself!

10. Which language do you want to learn?
Hindi! :( I studied it and yet do not know it much to my shame. a few significant relatives of mine are Maharashtrians and Punjabis (What a desi family eh?)
It would make me get to know them better :)

11. What’s your favourite quote?
Courage in your mind, prayer on your lips, horizon in sight, march ahead, success is yours!

12. Who do you want to meet right now?
I'd like to meet my wife and talk to her! Its been 4 good years since we spent quality time talking (nothing happened, just that we had children since then)

13. What is your favourite colour?
Sky Blue. Always

14. Give us 3 styling tips that work for you.
Style? well, almost mottai thalai summer crop. A kurta pyjama/Sherwani or Formals with Tie!

15. What is your dream job?
A job where I have manager who is also my guru, a team that I can keep happy, look back each year and tell myself that I have accomplished something this year.
I'm in one right now (pst...am a frog in a well)

16. What’s your favorite magazine?
Autocar, Engadget.com, autoblog.net cannot live without these

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
A valentine gift for my dear wife.

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
Men wearing bermudas, sitting cross legged.

19. Is exercise a part of your daily routine? If so, what kind of exercise is it?
Jog 2 kms daily

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
Summer crop (always)

21. What are you going to do after this?
Go home to my wife and kids!

22. What are your favourite movies?
God father 1,2 LoTr-1,2,3, Green Mile

23. What inspires you?
A good photograph, stirring music, a good story (I guess art inspires me)

24. What do your friends call you most commonly?
cv

25. Would you prefer coffee or tea?
Depends on the time of the day. First thing in the morning its always Coffee! After that only tea!

26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
Stay quiet.. and either kick my own butt out of it or some one always picks me up :) am lucky ain't i?

27. What makes you go wild?
When someone automatically makes you accountable for the task that you once helped them with! You hate to help again and you hate yourself for thinking like that.


28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
There is a whole bunch. Check my profile.

29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
Ice cream . Period,

30. How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?
15 :)

31. Favorite Season?
Dec-Feb in Chennai

32. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me?
If my dear wife would let me, then I'd cook mm.... some spicy ginger rasam and beans! Sorry Lavanya, I cannot throw up something fancy myself!

33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
Ignore them!

34. What are you afraid of the most?
losing my credibility! I like to be fair 100% but am afraid I wont be!

35. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
when will I ever lose that flab?

36. What brings a smile on your face instantly??
My son's toothless grin! My daughter's innocent face when she is asleep (oh she is a terror when she is awake.)


38. What would you do if you were made PM of India for one day?
Introduce eligibility criteria to be a minister. Make sure all ministerial nominations are approved by a panel of the respective Industry's top bureaucrats and experts!
Make it a criminal offence to make statements such as Maharashtra is only for Marathis or Tamil Nadu is only for tamils. Don't even think prez has these powers

39. What is that one thing that keeps you going.
Truthfulness and fear of losing trust placed in me!

40. Whats one thing that you used to love that you left
Hanging out with friends. I got married !

41. What would be your reaction, if you come to know that today is the last day of your life
Panic and fear for my Children's future! A fervent prayer to god to take care of them and give them good education and courage to face life!

42. What are your hobbies?
Photography, cars, gadgets, Reading, music, blogging


43. What do you hate about yourself?
I try to be politically correct most of the times. Wish I could go bindaas, speaking my mind with a care a damn attitude.
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